Oddly enough, the best rush of 2009 wasn’t base jumping, fire walking or shark diving. It was bringing my life to a screeching halt. Usually, these things take time and are more like turning a massive ocean liner around. Not this time, things converged, stars aligned, shit happened and I found my former, very busy and committed life was suddenly simple. It was by accident on purpose. My Life has a funny way of forcing the solution when my head says “no, I’m going this-a-way.”
The rush sensation didn’t happen in the process. That was more like a cataclysmic meteor shower. And, it was something I asked for. I didn’t ask for the grief and pain but I did ask for the change. Last December I said boldly, “I want 2009 to be the year of effortless effort.” Little did I know that meant a hewge amount of peeling and paring to get there. ouch.
The rush came when I recently realized that my life is simpler and I am experiencing effortless effort and that it took a meteor shower to make it happen and that I survived. It was like taking a deep, healing breath of fresh mountain air…where you can feel the oxygen fill every space of your body and you didn’t know you needed it until you felt it take space. Now, there is energy to devote to places that need growth. There is room to nurture the withered bits. There is time to just be still. Yeah…that’s it. Stillness was my rush. And funny thing is, stillness is the quality that I’ve chosen for 2010.