In the history of challenges, 2009 was a stinker! You name it, I was pushed to the edge, stretched to capacity…and sometimes it really stunk! But, the good thing about massive challenge is that it tempers you and you either suffer or change.
My best challenge of 2009 was to move from this: a multi-tasking, over-committed, super busy, all-over-the-place, knot of “doing.” I thought I was being productive. What I was doing was tripping down the highway of blazing burnout.
To this: focused, diligent, purposeful and still. It feels right and good now but I have to say that getting there was my own private bull-ring. It was hard to really say no, give up all the sparkly bits and make a commitment to what I want in my art, my life, my relationships. Now that my kinetic scribble is becoming a spiral, a taproot if you will, I’m experiencing the delicious sensation of simply being.
What was with 2009? It has been a rough year for me also. I have been surrounded by that scribble and every time i took a step out, it tighten more around me. I do feel that going into the end of 2009, there is a different energy for begining 2010. I’m always drawing spirals and do feel the scribble untangling into one.
I wish you the best….